Wednesday, May 11, 2011

Operation Drug Drop--A week until Go time


Today the FedEx guy arrived with all my drugs for this IVF cycle. I felt  like a kid who had gotten a Christmas package as I unpacked everything and put the drugs that needed to be refrigerated away.  I have been very blessed when it has come to the cost of drugs.  With my last IVF cycle, I had different insurance and some how they ended up covering my Gonal-f (which makes my eggs grow). It is VERY expensive medicine and costs close to $1,000 a pen, which typically you need at least 3 pens for a cycle.  While I had that insurance coverage, I had the doctor order me extra pens. So I have 3 left over Gonal-f pens from the last IVF!  Woo hoo!!  So that left me only having to buy the cheaper drugs this time. So today I got EVERYTHING else I will need for the rest of my IVF cycle, and it just cost us $350.  So definitely not bad at all considering drugs usually cost you $3,000 or more for just one IVF cycle!  I'm crossing my fingers these three pens will be enough, or else we will be out another $500-$1000 depending on how much Gonal-f I would need. But we will cross that bridge when we get there, and sometimes the clinic has donated meds that they can give to their patients if they just need a little bit.

So a week from today, May 18, is our official start day. It's then that I will add to the birth control, Lupron, which will suppress all my hormones and keep me from ovulating the eggs too early and then a steroid that will help to keep me from hyperstimulating.(crossing fingers) and having too much inflammation.  I will stay on the Lupron and steroid the longest. Then on May 23, I will stop the birth control pills and  May 30 I will start the meds that will cause my eggs to grow.

Everyday it's starting to feel more and more real. It's sinking in and I'm having thoughts and feelings of....OMG.. this is really going to happen..wow...this is awesome... we are really going to do this AGAIN!  We are going to get to try for a baby again!!! It's finally here after almost nine months of waiting...shoot, if our last IVF had worked, I would be delivering next month on the 6th!! It's crazy to even think about that! The time has finally come to try again. Hell...there is a very good chance I could be pregnant at the end of next month!!  OMG!!!!

But then I've also been experiencing a very different kind of feeling....the kind you get when are jerked to a stop at the very top of a roller coaster...when you are at the highest point... looking down...suspended in mid-air.... just waiting for the cart to drop...and your heart starts pounding... and your stomach in up in your chest...and your brain is screaming...oh, shit, do we really want to do this?!?!...but at that point it's too late....you're already committed...there's no turning back...stuck...so you just give in...you go with it and you enjoy the ride!

Ah... Enjoy the Ride...that's what I'm going to really try my best to do. To go with it..give in completely.... not question the what if's...or how will I ever recover if this fails again...and just enjoy the thrill of the ride...the ups...the downs..the turns..the unexpected loops...and of course I can't forget the screaming like a little girl through the entire ride.  LOL

Speaking of screaming....as I mentioned earlier I am on birth control, yes I know very ironic considering I am trying to get pregnant, and Glen is just loving the mood swings, NOT!!  LOL  Poor thing. He has been so sweet, but OMG these birth control pills have been making me bitchy.  I'm not a bitch all the time thank goodness, but boy it's like these streaks of nastiness just hit me.... I'm fine one minute and then the next... I'm REALLY pissed off for no good reason.  Normal Staci takes some real warming up and then simmering before she fires off, at least I'd like to think, he he, but with these birth control pills there IS NO simmering phase, it's just fine and then claws are out and RAARRRR!!  Really glad my hubby loves me!!

Ok...I know you will all find this funny... but I have been having this crazy panicked feeling that I should be packing. LOL  But ever since Turkey, I've associate traveling with IVF. LMAO Unfortunately, there will be no trip included in this IVF cycle.  It will take place entirely here in Dallas. :-(  Hopefully I will be able to find enough distractions around the area to keep my mind off of things. I should start planning things now.  Do y'all have any suggestions?  Trying the new In-N-Out is on the list!  Yep, you out in Cali read right!  They have arrived in Texas!!  Now Texas has it ALL!!  Woo-ha-ha-ha!  (that was suppose to be one of those evil dastardly laughs)

Actually....there will be some packing during this IVF...just not for a trip. We will be moving into a house.  We have been looking into houses to rent. Hopefully we will find the perfect one soon. I know the timing isn't the best, but doesn't that seem like when all the non-fertility challenged couples always get pregnant. When their lives are all crazy busy, stressful, and strapped for cash. Hey that sounds kind of like us right now!  ;-)  LOL

Well I guess that's about it for me...Glen just asked...aren't you finished with that yet? I thought you posted that over an hour ago!  LOL  I told him perfection takes time. ;-)

I hope you all are doing well!  Thank you again for all your support and comments!

1 comments on "Operation Drug Drop--A week until Go time"

Anonymous said...

Yeah for you!! So exciting that it is about to be time to start injections! Good luck as you start Lupron, and, as always, I wish you the best!

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